On Tuesday, I wrote an article about how Chad helped me as I was learning how to have victory over depression. I listed 3 things that he did, as my husband, to help me, and I wanted to specifically address those who have close friends, spouse, or family members with anxiety or depression. You can read that article here.
Today, I’ll be talking to those of you who are on this journey – whether you’ve just begun, would like to begin, or you can see the light at the end of the tunnel – these 4 points I will be sharing are for you. By no means are they “black and white” answers. These are the things that I did for Chad, as he was right along side of me, winning this battle together.
(I’m going to add a disclaimer here – I fail at these items frequently and already have this week.)
1) I had to lower my expectations of him.
My personality is very melancholy or High C (for those of you who know the personality lingo). That means I like things a certain way, I like schedule and routine, by nature I don’t like change, and if any of these things are out of whack, then I’m out of whack. A person with that personality tends to have high expectations of others, and honestly, they have higher expectations of themselves. As I talked with my counselor about this, he told me that when my expectations do not line up with reality, this is why I “freak out” or feel out of control. In fact, I had to talk with my 9 year old about this just this week. Things were not going her way and she is much like me, things have to be a certain way and it had better be her way. I tried to explain to her that life was not always going to go the way she wanted it, and we need to make the best of whatever happens.
I had such high expectations of my husband. I had to realize that he was not me, nor was he a woman or a mother. We just do things differently than our husbands do. And that’s not good or bad – it’s just different. If my husband was going to be alongside of me and help me, I needed to cut him some slack.
2) I shared much of my counseling sessions with him.
If Chad was going to understand what I was learning, and help me implement what I was learning, then he needed to know what my counselor and I talked about. For example, this is how Chad knew that I needed some space and time to calm down when I was becoming frustrated and overwhelmed. I helped him by telling him what my counselor suggested for me. Now, Chad didn’t ask me. He let me tell him on my own time. And if I had not trusted him, I would have never told him.
3) I said “I’m sorry”.
I suppose this one goes for both Chad and my children. Whenever I had wronged them by treating them badly, yelling at them, or being disrespectful, I would come back and apologize. And I didn’t just apologize in order to forget about what happened and make Chad not be mad at me. There was a time early in our marriage that I did that. I would say “I’m sorry” in hopes that Chad would forget about it and no longer be upset with me. When I say I’m sorry now, I don’t say it until I mean it. And that also means I will do my best to not treat Chad or the kids like that again. It doesn’t mean I’m perfect; it just means with God’s help I will do my best.
4) I was patient with Chad.
Because Chad had been living with me in this state for so long (really since we were married), it was hard for him to trust that I was really wanting to change. There have been many times when I have begun to get overwhelmed or frustrated and Chad would immediately get on the defensive, assuming that I would soon begin to tear into him for some unknown reason. Can I really blame him? I did that for so long, he was just trying to protect himself. So as I was learning, growing, and changing, I had to be patient with him, letting him learn, grow, and change too.
I hope this helps give you an idea of how spouses need to work together when dealing with depression and anxiety. This can really apply to any kind of conflict in marriage.
I have added a link to a broadcast from Focus on the Family. My friend, Carrie, shared it with me and it’s an excellent show about depression, especially among Christians. I encourage you and your spouse to listen to it.
Have a wonderful Easter weekend with your family. And remember, without the sacrifice that Jesus made for us, there is no way we could truly live with real joy.